not another rant!

I'ts been a while since the last time i blogged here..cos its either i dont have that much time to concentrate composing another journal i could post here or i really dont have personal stuff to talk about. Mom's out and my younger brothers went off to school thats why im left all alone and theres nothing much to do and so i blog.

I cant post this on tumblr cos its too personal, though i know some people may read this but fewer and little a chance to access on this account. ok then.. here it goes!...

Reading whats in the title more likely you could guess what imma bout to say and express here. Yup! and its none other than about, who else? but madam! These past few days she's been mad or being cranky especially towards me, i have an idea why but i really couldn't understand wth is her problem. I know i haven't been myself lately and seems like i am being so preoccupied but its just that im sick and tired of my daily routine here. I bring about new things just to enjoy myself and try to have some fun yet it appears to be displeasing to her. Though there's also a lot of things ive done i admit is wrong but i find it hard to forget things she's been telling me of who i am and what kind of person i am now because of my peers influence. If she only knew that my barkadas weren't the ones who totally influenced me but i think its really who i am. There's a lot of things i may say that she didn't know about me.haiii

As what they say physical wounds are easier to heal than a wounded heart. I totally agree! cos if that wound heals physically when you go back thinking of that time you got that wound, yes you'll remember that it is painful but you cant feel the actual pain any more, unlike when someone told you hurtful things you can't forget that easily and when the time comes you do and suddenly it goes back to you and remembered what that other person told you, you'll still get hurt. And that's how i feel now. Madam could've just hurt me physically as much as she could cos it will definitely pass than telling me all the possible hurtful things she could say. but i just take it as an advantage cos if someday other people would tell bad and cruel stuffs about me and about my being i wouldn't get so affected by those cos Ive heard it already and especially it came from my mom.