YOU CANT TRY WIPING YOUR MOUTH WITH TOILET PAPER COS IT FULL OF SH*T!

You expect me to believe that DECEIT! ha ha ha. I am not such a NITWIT as you are. You should try harder with  your lame excuse dear! I am not after of anything ESPECIALLY from YOU. The truth would have been a way better clean up and a wise thing to say, yet you chose to be yourself and remain to be stupid. You think you knew me well but you really have no idea boy. I never thought you could be that much absurd as a person. I do not regret what had happened neither do i have wrath but you really made things worst with that vindication. 

You think you're all Macho nevertheless an IMBECILE one...

Better Prepare Mr. cos things are pretty Messed up, you can't be so sure! this ain't the end.

F*cked UP!

I got laid last night and damn it was so DISAPPOINTING. I expected too much from that nitwit, i thought he was that good that's why i decided to go with him. It was a "quickie"cos we only had one round and we did it within an hour. ha ha. I have this feeling that he was also displeased with my attitude or maybe with my performance but the hell do i care. I did it on purpose cos things did not happened the way i wanted it to be.  From the place where we are supposed to be doing it,well actually it was kind of my fault because i was late and had a curfew but also he didn't bought me some food or even a drink not until i asked him. and most of all it was for FREE. ha ha. just kidding. Demanding right? but i felt like he just took advantage of me and got a piece of me, I don't regret what I've done cos from the fact that i agreed to go out with him i know what is his motive or He is JUST after one thing, SEX. I was just dissatisfied with the whole experience with him. It was all Dull and Boring Encounter. I don't really care how he felt and think of me but i only gave him what he deserves, and i guess with a bit more!

not another rant!

I'ts been a while since the last time i blogged here..cos its either i dont have that much time to concentrate composing another journal i could post here or i really dont have personal stuff to talk about. Mom's out and my younger brothers went off to school thats why im left all alone and theres nothing much to do and so i blog.

I cant post this on tumblr cos its too personal, though i know some people may read this but fewer and little a chance to access on this account. ok then.. here it goes!...

Reading whats in the title more likely you could guess what imma bout to say and express here. Yup! and its none other than about, who else? but madam! These past few days she's been mad or being cranky especially towards me, i have an idea why but i really couldn't understand wth is her problem. I know i haven't been myself lately and seems like i am being so preoccupied but its just that im sick and tired of my daily routine here. I bring about new things just to enjoy myself and try to have some fun yet it appears to be displeasing to her. Though there's also a lot of things ive done i admit is wrong but i find it hard to forget things she's been telling me of who i am and what kind of person i am now because of my peers influence. If she only knew that my barkadas weren't the ones who totally influenced me but i think its really who i am. There's a lot of things i may say that she didn't know about me.haiii

As what they say physical wounds are easier to heal than a wounded heart. I totally agree! cos if that wound heals physically when you go back thinking of that time you got that wound, yes you'll remember that it is painful but you cant feel the actual pain any more, unlike when someone told you hurtful things you can't forget that easily and when the time comes you do and suddenly it goes back to you and remembered what that other person told you, you'll still get hurt. And that's how i feel now. Madam could've just hurt me physically as much as she could cos it will definitely pass than telling me all the possible hurtful things she could say. but i just take it as an advantage cos if someday other people would tell bad and cruel stuffs about me and about my being i wouldn't get so affected by those cos Ive heard it already and especially it came from my mom.

REACTION PAPER! (500 DAYS OF SUMMER FILM)

I got interested of watching 500 DAYS OF SUMMER  because people i follow in tumblr put  significant number of posts, like photos and quotations about this movies and so i tried to download it but then it will take much hours compared to the time i would watch the film so my brother went to a shop and got a copy of it.

I Think...
               The Movie was nice, It's unlikely predictable for me, cause Im really not into movies which it's story or ending is very predictable. I thought that Tom and Summer the Main Character in the movie, will end up together at the end but then they weren't.

I Feel...
               Actually i got bit bored with first half of the movie, the story line is not in chronological order, Tom was kind of remembering back his 500 days with summer, so i was a bit confused because scenes or days were jumping back and fro.Yet i felt glad when the movie ended, its quite an ending i like in a movie, the ones who would still hook me up or got me affected and still think about the story or the character's feelings. It's like making me feel that the movie was based on a true story and the characters exist in the real world and i worry about them. weird huh? but i am into that feeling.


I Learn...
              You don't know how but you will know if that person is right for you. Same with Tom and Summer, She didn't want to be anybody's girlfriend and yet she become somebody's wife, Tom couldn't understand it but for her It just happened, something that she was not sure about Tom. I also learned that if it wasn't yours it will never be yours and no matter how hard it takes to get over with you just have to let things go and go on with your life. There's someone somewhere for you and it will come at the right time,sometimes when you least expect it.


I Recommend...
                Its a nice film to watch for couples,who's inlove or people who just came from a broken relationship, also for those who were in a kind of relationship with no labels yet trying to enjoy and be happy being with each other and seizing every moment together. As told in the movie it is not a love story but for me it seemed like one.

new addiction!

I would not have a blogger account if i had remembered my password before. But it was OK then cos for me tumblr is like a more public blog account for me, random ideas and feelings i have can also be shared with my friends in facebook and this blogger account  is quite more personal blog, like a diary. I could only select a person who could access or read my blogs here. I am quite fascinated of how tumblr works, but i am really giving much time figuring out how to customize my page, unlike here in blogger it is much easier, i wanted to insert some wigdets..etc.. looking for nice theme and im having a hard time. argh. yet  i am enjoying posting a lot of  photos, quotes and mini blog in my tumblr account and also sharing it.

Anu ba talaga ateng???

                Gusto ko man ilaan na lang yng sarili ko sa kanya, pero its a BIG risk to take. I mean focus ko nalang sana sarili ko na sya na yung right guy for me, not totally means na sya na yung pakakasalan ko pero kung WILL ni Lord adi mas ok! Its like closing my doors to other opportunities, keeping myself to love and be loved as well. Paano kase kung di sya yung nakalaan para saken and then along the way nameet ko na pala yung talagang para saken, it is really a big risk or malaking kahibangan. Naisip ko lang yun na parang ireserve yung sarili ko for that guy, para hindi naren ako mawili sa iba,masaktan,umasa,  pero what if saknya ako sobra umasa tapos hinde ren naman niya alam na ganun yung feelings and plan ko towards him,unfair lang den. Haiii sa totoo lang weighing things,para saken sya na yung gusto ko maging right guy for me,pero mahirap tlagang umasa, kase panu kung HINDE PALA, adi plakda! Matagal ko na kaseng crush tong boilaloo na ito kaso napalayo naman kame sa isa't isa kase may mga plans den for him at sinu ba ko para pigilan yun. 3yrs after malayo pa den kame sa isa't isa pero parang gusto ko lang na sknya na ireserve yung sarili ko, yung masabe na may hinahantay talaga ako, gusto ko sana mabigyan kame ng chance. Pero alam ko naman na mali den,gulo noh, pero siguro hintayin ko nalang siya, try to look forward or anticipate na mgkakachance den kame kaso wag nalang masyado magpapako, kung may darating at mukang deserve din naman siguro try ko na palipasin na yung kahibangan na yun for that guy. Masarap lang din kasi kiligin once in a while, magimagine for my prince charming sa katauhan niya.wahaha. Landi lang. Alam ko naman na there's a lot of fish in the ocean ika nga, malay ko makameet ako ng MAS sknya,haha. Hilo lang? Sa totoo lang di ko naman den alam yung feelings niya para saken or kung meron ba, hahaha pero bahala na si Lord.para saken ee sa ngayon lang naman habang wala pa talaga dumarating at napupusuan ko naman. Bakit kasi ganun Madalas Yung Gusto Mo Ayaw sayo tas yung Ayaw Mo Gusto KA! waaah..kaloka teng.

:3 kat_xo

Oh Sakit Layuan mo ako!!! ughhh

                Sa Panahon ngayon, BAWAL MAGKASAKIT! magastos boi at sinu bang may gustong may sakit! susme nakakatamad uminom ng gamot, hirap makahinga at matulog sa gabi dahil barado ng sipon ang ilong. Hinde pa masyado makakilos dahil hinahapo agad! Kailangan ko din problemahin kapag nakahawa ako, lalo na yung bunsong kapated, deds ako ke madam. Nagemote emote pa kase..hayun HELLO UBO at SIPON! at kalaunan trangkaso na. haii nagpaambon kase kame ng kapated ko nung B day ko. Sa totoo lang gusto ko lang magpahangin at palipas ng sama ng loob. Panu ba naman ako tong mei bday tas si madam aun kasama ng mga padrino niya sa labas, naghappy happy ang wala! Bwiset talga mehn pero tapos na. May kasalanan den ako kahit panu pero ughh...bahala na nagiinet pa den ulo ko pag naalala ko yung mga pangyayareng yun. Sakit ang regalo saken..galeng! haha.. Ang ikinasasama pa ng loob ko ee LAHAT ng gusto kong kainin abot kamay na! Ice Cream na favorite Flavor ko (Coffee Almond Cookies), White Forest Cake, Favorite Chocolatesss.. Reese's, twix, snickers, Chips at Coke..etc..! huwaaahh...kung kelan naman oh..Pwede naman sila kainen pero hinde ko malalasap ng bongga dahil di ko sila malasahan at yung ice cream, hello ubo baka umuber grabe..rarrr...

Sa Kabilang banda ang medyo maige lang sa pagkakaroon ng sakit ee menos gawaing bahai, may excuse sa paghiga higa ng mahabang oras, tas nakakapayat! wahah...syempre di masyado makakaen, walang gana. Pero di bale nalang den, mas hagard kapag may sakit tas kagagalitan ka pa, sasabihen ginusto ko naman daw to ang wala. Napakagaleng talaga ee nuh! 

                   Nurse nga pala ako nuh, pero nakakatamad den kase minsan, masarap ang bawal ika nga..haha..jox. Hirap alagaan ang sarili, hinde naman pwede iasa lahat ke madam kase siya den ee di na ganun kalakas at prone naren sa mga sakit, mahina na ren ang katawan. Yung kapated ko naman na sumunod saken ee hanggat di uutusan ee walang kusa, mastress ka lang den sknya. hai panget talgga ng feeling ng may sakit. Sa ngayon gusto kong kumaen ng dalandan mehn, kaso nakakahiya magpabili ke madam hikahos den kase ngayun. waah.

:3 kat_xo